today started well.
at least in the beginning only.
on the way to school?
darn it. a bloody thing happen.
dammit shit.
HE* got angry and really pissed off.
i mean REALLY REALLY pissed off!
i've never seen him that way before.
LITERALLY NEVER!
he got me all frightened by his mad outburst
which i rarely see. like i menion before, NEVER.
it was a FIRST for me.
HE* usually could control his temper.
this morning?
guess i DID cross the line.
well, it aint all my fault.
he's partially to blame too!
it takes 2 hands to clap aites!
hais*.
DEAR? a sorry? a mere sorry?
you think that will heal the hurt you caused me?
huh? i DONT THINK so!
sorry is just a word.
it aint got any more sincere meaning to it to me anymore.
evryone's been using the word. SORRY.
but repeat their mistakes.
where's the sincerity?
the severity of apologising from the bottom of your heart?
im hopelessly reminiscing. why?
cause i dont wanna compare DEAR to anybody.
but his attitude this morning?
got me to open my eyes. real big.
he showed his other side.
his true colours.
DAMN. argh.
should i express anymore of my feelings about this morning?
i dont know.
darn it! a good thing i hid away all my sadness for the sake of my beloved friends.
dont want them to think that im a burden to them.
they'll despise me for that. who wants a burden in their lives right?
okays. :) hais. oh well.
he's being unreasonable day by day?
i dont know? merely my own fault?
dammit. oh whatever.( sorry DEAR for using this word. but aint for you anyway.)
hais. hais. hais.
fcuk. fcuk. fcuk.
I HATE TODAY!
I HATE 2oTH SEPT 2oo6!!
the tears wanna flow, but determination held them back.
yours truly,kae.