its hard for me.
to go through all this.
im not trying to stop you.
but i just cant accept it.
the timing is all wrong.
you cant be there when i need you now.
so what am i gonna do?
left speechless and confused.
on my own now to solve my own problem.
you're the one whom i've dumped my problems on to.
and yet, in the end, i have no place else to dump them.
im feeling insecured.
ever since you started all that.
is it jealousy? or just plain irritation?
dunch wish to be hurt in all this process.
yesterday,
i'll gladly throw it all away to refrain from getting hurt.
cause i've had enough.
yet now, my heart's been giving me a different sign.
oh damn.
been 3 nights i laid awake on my bed.
unable to close my eyes peacefully.
that suck. a lot.
been listening to loads of depressing emotional songs lately.
what's up with that? how pathetic! :)
oh God. have you been listening to my prayers?
my needs? my wishes to you?
hmms. it doesnt seemed like it at first.
but hey, life did gave itself a little twist.
i got my first prayer answered.
thank you! thank you! thank you!
but still, i wish things wont hafta change next year.
work and school.
hmms. two different exposure.
can i make it in the outside world?
away from my comfort zone?
i doubt so but im trying. :)
and heck, it hurts so much just missing you.
i miss you. a lot.
and those lil goodnight kisses you used to surprise me with.
i miss those toos.
any chance i'll be getting one tomorrow?
we'll see.
yours truly, kae.