im like really lazy to update my blog.
go rafhanah and hasmidah blogs.
details of outings are there.
they like writing long blog entries.
i dont know how they do it.
but they save me the trouble.
thanks guys! hahas! :D

so today, went back to SERANGOON SEC.
hahas. feeling weird entering the school when you've got no major business to.
helped out with the malay dancers.
poor rafhanah! so stressed out! hahas.
then went to long john for dinner.
okay. maisarah's version of pronouncing long john is really hilarious.
hahas! :D
and yeah, mai, it was the first time i actually ate with you.
you eat really fast you know!

and yeah. cant wait for saturday.
for the sec 1 cca orientation.
i miss secondary school.
i really do.
and yeah farah, i'll always imagine you running around in school, disturbing people.
and that makes me really sad. :(

and yeah YOU.
you're acting like a real jerk.
come on uhh.
you asked for a new leaf yet this is still what i get?
i tried my best and still trying
and all you gave back to me is shit?
when you need me, then you come searching for me?
like hello! who do you think i am?
your toy girl? treat me with respect and love okays?
that's all i need.
those bullshits, you can just keep it for your own use.
i dont need them.
im suppose to be the HER.
and yet, you dont seemed inetrested anymore.
THE TV SHOW IS MORE IMPORTANT TO YOU UHHS????
when i ignore you, you said i neglected you.
when i searched for you, you are suddenly busy with stuffs.
what do you want from me exactly?

please uhh muhd tahir, make me happy.
you've been giving me bullshits lately.
im changing but you're not.
why? you going back on your promise.
the only happy times we have is when we are meeting each other.
and when we dont, fights starts to roll over.
enough tahir. dont just think for yourself.
what about me? i have feelings too.
im afraid of losing you.
but sometimes, letting you go is the solution even though its hard.
i cant even get my own boyfriend to enjoy a conversation with me.
and yeah, that suck. a lot.

i miss school.
i miss malay dance.
i miss performing.
i miss being me.
and again, i miss being a secondary school kid.
*sighs

yours truly, kae.

tags replies:

deq donio: hahas. yeahs! lucky i come back. i got to see you! and we had a nice conversation huhs? hehes.
loves you many many too dearest! :)

sillylala: hahas. of course i'll link you. you linked me. i must do a good deed in return. hehs! :)