im beginning to love this hairstyle. you'll see more of me in this hairstyle now. (:
oh. i just realised.
old sweetheart's fave hairstyle.
too bad, he cant see me in it now.
*sigh
warning: if you aint in the mood to be sad and read sappy post. then i suggest you leave now. thanks. (:
i really cant shake this feeling off.
why? why must i keep thinking about it now?
please! i've been trying to be strong these past few days.
i might have complained, whined, poured my heart to some of you people,
but please dont forget.
im trying. trying REALLY HARD to get through this.
i cant do it alone. i need you people.
i've been blessed with friends who had been there for me during my down moments.
hasmidah especially.
the only one who ever heard me cried on the phone over it.
BUT. no one. NO ONE, had seen me cry about it.
i wanna be strong. i wanna be happy around my friends.
around my malay dancers. around people.
just bear with me if i ever turn upside down.
thanks again to those who kept me sane all this while. (:
especially mai, shar, ati, marcus, fadzil,farah, juffri, hafiz sujad. (':
i really dont think the reason you gave me is true.
till this day, i refused to believe it.
even my friends dont believe it.
even your friends dont believe it.
it was because of one small issue that sparked off the whole thing.
i wonder, have you ever seen me positively?
have i ever made you happy genuinely?
or did you keep me cause of other reasons?
there wasnt any hints nor signs to where this might end up at.
i still refused to accept what happened due to your reasons.
but i have to. im slowly accepting the fact.
the reality.
it's nice to see you having fun. with your friends.
you are so free now.
it shows that it's so easy for you to move on.
it feels different not telling you where im going.
what time i'll be home.
with whom i'll be with for the day.
what time we're gonna talk till late night.
those fights we had. the happy and sad moments we shared.
how can you just let it all go? just like that?
is this what you really want?
i guess it is cause its been more that a week since you're gone.
you are not turning back are you?
i dont want another guy.
i really dont. im already so comfortable with you.
the only guy i got comfortable with.
sharing my private stuffs and stories with you.
i miss those late night talks.
i miss the way you smiled at me.
i miss the way you smiled at me.
i miss the way you always lifted up my mood when im down.
i miss the way you looked at me, with all the love within.
i miss the way you looked at me, with all the love within.
i miss those times we spent in the library.
i miss just sitting around at clarke quay with you.
i miss your hugs , your kisses.
i miss having cheesecakes with you. (remember this sweetheart?)
i miss holding your hands.
i miss the advice you gave me when i fought with my dad.
i miss your surprised msgs.
i miss listening to you saying how much you love the name "Daud". :D
i miss hearing your voice.
i miss fighting with you.
i miss your tickles, your laughters.
i miss singing "This I Promise You" with you.
i miss listening to you strum your guitar.
i miss making you jealous jokingly and vice versa.
i miss taking pictures with you.
i miss long bus rides with you.
i miss seeing you eat waffles.
i miss being with you.
bottomline, i miss you sweetheart.
i really do.
and i cant deny the fact that i still love you.
*sigh.
GUY'S EGO ARE GETTING BIGGER THAN THEIR BALLS NOWADAYS.
yours truly, kae.