okay.


i hate having to be in such situation like this.
you think i asked for it?
i cant be happy without having to face negative news in my life.
i have so many things to think about, to worry about.
and i have absolutely no one to pour out to.
even if i do have someone, it doesnt feel right talking about it.
in the end, all the stuffs and feelings are bottled up inside me.

ticking of my list of things to worry about, i only accomplished maybe one or two.
and they are just so minor, it doesnt matter if i dont get it over and done with.
and now, my future.
what is going to happen to it?
am i to blame? even after all i did?
i wasnt lucky thats all.
or cause the path im heading to, is so different to the path my friends are going towards?
maybe im the black sheep.
okay, that sounds so negative.
im the different girl in my clique.
seriously, anybody can see that.
i have talents. (im not saying my friends dont),
im the only one who is willing to further that talent and bring it to a whole new level in my life.
im gonna work hard for it.

and you.
you are just being unreasonable again.
i aint got no chance to explain.
it wasnt fair. it wasnt entirely my fault.
you know that.
you have always been saying, "i'll give you this chance."
like what? im the only one who always screws up?
no way. you have your faults too.
im just unlucky, it happened to me.
why cant you just try to understand?
there werent any motives being it.
i just wanna have fun. with my friends.
it doesnt matter what i wear.
please. do me this favour.
stop playing this childish game.
when im gone, you miss me.
when im here, you take me for granted, throwing me away whenever you feel like it.
dont cross the line, or im gonna pour all the bullshits i can find on you.
brace yourself, cause it aint gonna be pretty.
i've warned you.

and yeah, friends.
i had fun at the swimming pool.
it's always nice to be around you guys.
you people are so sexaye!
i love yall. :)

yours truly, kae.