cause i wished, you knew.


1st day raya with tha usual fams,
was undeniably greatt!
kecohhhhhhhh!! :D
i've missed each and everyone of 'em.
tha cousins i mean.
that day was a day i got tuh let out all mah misses tuh all.
thanks fo tha great fun you guys!
love love love yall lotsa! (:
so, reserved 3 days fo raya outings wit otha cliques.
tha rest, you guys could invite me along.
i try, no promises thou.
no 1 priority now on mah list is:
S.H.O.P.P.I.N.G!
anyone who is ever so kind wanna drag me along tuh go shopping wit 'em?
i'll gladly accept tha invite. LOL.
okay whatever.

im waiting tuh change my blogskin.
it's sucha bore to yall and fo me.
i know. i know.
sooooooooooon aight people.

i have so much tuh say but i dont know how tuh let it all out here.
i badly wanna talk to someone.
but i feel like i aint got no one.
well, no one suitable that is.
i need someone whose experiencing it or has experienced tha same thang im going thru right now.
i'd feel so much betta.
oh mannnnnnnnnnnnn.
i dont know what tha heck is going thru in mah mind.
whenever i go online these days,
my heart aches.
like badly.
and right now, i dare to confirm.
im not PMS-ing. at all.
all this while,
i had a reason why i was feeling and acting this way.
tha answers all lies in mah heart.
but i refused to look into it right from tha beginning.
i refused to accept tha fact on how i was feeling about certain thangs.
all this while, i knew.
but i refused to acknowledge it.
i went thru one whole bloody round just to get to tha topic.
denying and acting dumb aint helping at all.
these thangs could get me going crazy at times.
i do share this prob in bits and pieces to selected close few.
but that's all i ever did.
begin, talk, whine, complain, heartache, gave up and went offline.
yeah, that's basically it.

damn.
oh to hell with all these love and heart matters!
im still young yaww.
aint no reason why i gotta get myself hooked tuh someone.
plus, i need all tha freedom i deserve afta spending two years wit tha same guy
which, apparently, took me a while tuh realise it is kinda dumb to spend so long wit a certain guy,
UNLESS, you know he is tha one.
im not talking about marriage here.
oh heck no.
marriage was never a topic.
im talking about someone who could really last long wit ya.
i dont know whether yall get what im trynna say.
heck, i dont even know whether what i said, makes sense.
okay whatever it is,
i miss ya. (:

i need new beats tuh get me going.
tuh get me awake in tha train on tha way tuh school.
my PSP's full of old beats.
tagboard's there fo yall tuh intro me tuh new beats.
thanks yaww!
till here fo now.
heart ache.
damn damn damn damn damn damn damn!!

and oh, i can easily bring ya down afta getting ya up there, b*tch. (:

Yours Truly, Kae.