Dear God & You,

Please do not make me go through this again.
Please let me go & free me from all this.
Please do not torture me more.
Please just listen to what my heart have to say.
Please do not make me force myself to make a decision harshly.

Countless times, I said I've had enough.
But I gave it another chance whenever things start to brighten up.
Maybe, things are just not meant to be.
Everything started to go wrong after we made that decision.
It went more than wrong after that one afternoon.
When we shared a very beautiful moment together.
It was one of the most deepest moment of my life.
It was deeper than it is on the surface itself.
And I'm glad I shared it with you.
Last night,
I miss you enough to miss my sleep for a whole night.

I've done a lot of thinking by myself.
I self-reflected it all.
Yes, I still believe I have one more chance to this.
It's just a minor setback.
i don't want to do this.
But, I'm sorry.
I just cannot do this anymore.

Thank you Sharifah & Maisarah.
For being there & being supportive in whatever decisions I'm going to make
Though you both did not approve of it & told me not to give up.
Thank you Atiqah & Faraheen too.
& Lil Miss Hasmidah.
I miss you loads.
Lovelove.