Tuesday, after school went over to Hg to meet up w Sexayes for dinner.
After which we headed down to Geylang for the food! :D
Wednesday. Ended school early.
Thursday. Had the time to break my fast at home again.
Friday. Still pending on where will I be breaking my fast. Lunch break, meeting Ayu Syg to help her out w some shopping.
Saturday & Sunday. Besides helping Mama w the raya goodies, I have no plans. Could use the time to touch up my presentation slide for next week.
5 more days to raya.
This month's fasting month went by so v quickly.
It felt like only a week and a half since I just started fasting.
I didnt get myself a new baju kurung this year.
I am too lazy to get a new one and is not in the mood for a joyous raya.
I have no idea why. Guess the vibe's just not there this year.
I'll make do w the pink one I've gotten early this year which I've only wore it once to my cousin's wedding.
Will start on the new repertoire scene for Nov next week.
My piece is called Blood Wedding by Lorca.
Very intimate, passionate & sexy feeling to it.
But of course, it has that Spanish element to it.
Which part of the Spanish culture is not sexy and charming, you tell me? :P
I'm sure I will face a lot of difficulties to get intimate and stuffs for this one.
But I'm going to give my best shot.
Now, I just need to get my hands on a copy to start reading & understand the play.
I am starting to get real tired of being mad over some things that are so mini to other people.
Maybe I'm over-reacting. Maybe I'm being v paranoid. I dont know.
You have the answers, you tell me.
I dont feel appreciated at times.
What w the words, the phrases, the sentences, the heartfelt emotions shown?
I dont feel like it's real, somehow.
The 7 mths of hard work was way fruitful than the 3 mths of thinking it's actually paying off.
No it's not.
I am happy w the way things are going.
But that happiness was never till the 100% mark on the levelling scale.
Dont even go there. It didnt even reach 80%. Now we all know.
& it's up to us to do something about it.
Or we could just let it be and let the marking fall drastically till there's no more numbers that could describe how low it is anymore.
Yes, I'm faking it sometimes.
Pushing and sometimes forcing myself to think it has always been up to that 100% mark.
But by the end of the day, I know it was all full of lies.
We all know how the surface looks like.
Shiny, clean and not a single dent to it.
But dont let it till anyone of us cut it open to see those rotten parts that are actually eating away all the good parts that we will forget that it was once a shiny, clean and unrotten fruit.
So, how about it?
Do we try to cook it to perfection or we let the fire burn till there's nothing left to scrape?
You tell me.
Missing Tiqbby & Helbby. ):