How can you dream about something positive, something you desire so much though not necessarily want, yet at the same time, when you woke up, sat at the side of your bed, taking your time to start reminiscing everything in that dream, instead of finding yourself staring into space w a big silly grin plastered on your face & being contented enough w having that dream , you found yourself in tears to which you didnt realise till you felt your heart ache, literally?
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So after that, I got up to wash my face.
I still have about 2 hours before I'm supposed to be up for school.
But I dared not continue my sleep, afraid that dream might come back.
I was not ready for it at all and I never will.
So I stayed up all the way till I was due to get ready.
I thought about it again as I was showering and getting ready in my room.
Never once did it stop haunting my mind.
It only stopped when I was in school.
And when I'm home and night falls, it starts to come back.
To which how it leads to this post.
& after all that, I asked myself the qns in the beginning & I can only come to 3 conclusions.

1. Because it's something I care about so much but can't be fulfilled.
2. Because some dreams are not meant to come true.
& lastly,
3. Because I am only human

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